Dealing with the death of your spouse/best friend is the most heart-wrenching, overwhelming experience of any person's life..EVER! After 30 years together, the author lost his wife, his best friend and soul-mate. The process of dealing with this loss, pain, stress, agony, sorrow and bewilderment is chronicled, While wondering how to begin to start over, or whether to even try. It is brutally honest, and does not mince words or thoughts, even conversations with God, who is not the author's favorite deity based on past performance. Anyone who has gone through this tragedy will understand; those who have not, this may prepare you to deal with the process of picking up the pieces of your life again in your life after death. This is not easy nor simple but it can be done and this book may help. For one day you will have to deal with the death of someone you love as we all must. Nobody gets out of this alive.