Published by Entangled Publishing on November 2nd 2015
Also by this author: Not Okay Cupid
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I received this book for free from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
The world isn't just black or white. Sometimes it's red...
They think I'm next. That I'll be the seventh kid to step in front of a train and end my life. With the rash of suicides at my school, Mom's shipped me off to my dad's Wyoming ranch for “my own safety.” They think I’m just another depressed teenager whose blood will end up on the tracks. They don't know my secrets...or what I’ve done.
I wasn't expecting Dad to be so sick, for the ranch I loved to be falling to bits, or for Jake—the cute boy I knew years ago—to have grown into a full-fledged, hot-as-hell cowboy. Suddenly, I don't want to run anymore, but the secrets from home have found me...even here. And this time, it's up to me to face them—and myself—if I want to live...
Honestly, this is a book that will stay with me for awhile. The subject is extremely tough, and it can be very emotionally draining for me personally. Meaning, I can only take so much of really sad situations in books but at the same time, this is a significant story that needs to be told. I felt like the author did a good job at being sensitive and honest at the same time. She handled the tough stuff with a large amount of grace, which is always respectable to me.
I felt like the narration was clever, I’ve never read anything like it before. Basically, the main character is writing about the chain of events that led her to coming to stay with her father for the summer before she goes off to college. She writes all these details in a diary and the chapters are titled to mark the “then and now” sequence of events. Anyway, it was very tastefully done and I liked that the author was able to stand out with her storytelling.
In the then chapters, we get to see the toxic relationship that unraveled between Paige and her step-brother Ty back in California. This was unnerving for me at times, because I automatically could sense that something wasn’t right with him, but I also did enjoy the way the author revealed the information. There was a decent balance between the “then and now” chapters. Meaning, while the flashbacks were gradually worse and worse as Paige’s life begins to go to shambles, her current life is pretty great as she spends time on the ranch in Wyoming with the hot and sweet cowboy Jake.
While Tyler was obviously a terrible and sad sort of character, Jake was just the opposite. He was nothing but kind and welcoming to Paige. I also found it absolutely adorable that they were friends when they were kids. Jake never judges Paige for her past back in California, instead he focuses on their current time together and they definitely make the most of that. There’s plenty of swoonworthy scenes between these two that make me sort of forget all the bad that happened with Tyler. While it definitely doesn’t make any of what happened between them okay, I still love how caring and loyal Jake is.
I feel like I’ve almost started to say too much so I’ll just stop! Anyway, I think that you should totally give this book a shot. It has a story and brave main character, along with a swoony cowboy who is nothing short of amazing. What more could you ask for in a YA book? I can’t think of anything!